Integrating Practice into Daily Life: Exploring Our Deepest Truest Wish

I remember early on for me, I felt like I could practice for a bit, and it was really intense for me, I would get overwhelmed, so I needed a break afterwards.  So there was my time of focusing, and then a time when I went back to normal.  And the focus I needed to truly be present with this stuff seemed exhausting.  

But over time, as I got more of a sense of this, I saw that there was something trying to happen all of the time.  That was physical and I could allow it to lead me.  I did not have to do it. I did not have to let go, rather there was a process I could let go into that was trying to happen.

All day long being curious about what is trying to happen.  All day long feeling into the tanden, trying to move with the least tension. Trying to move from this place of connection.  Knowing something else is going on, knowing it is my job to let that happen.

This looked like, I thought one thing was happening, but if I looked closer, felt more intimately, I saw that deeper into my experience there was something else going on. Like a deeper subtle gear of opening and movement. Feeling this required a different, more sophisticated kind of focus and honesty and curiosity.